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Everything hurts [Mar. 5th, 2010|08:34 pm]
I'm so miserable. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I feel nauseous with "morning" sickness. I got a flat tire today and someone came tonight to adopt our kitty. I feel empty and beaten down and slowly decaying from the inside out. I thought this would be such a happy time in my life but it's been one of the worst. I've been crying my eyes out of our little cat, that is no longer ours. It's the right decision for him to go but I feel like the little spot in my heart will never heal. I hate this. I'm supposed to go to a bachelorette party tonight but my face is red and swollen, I can't see straight or breathe through my nose, my stomach is in my throat and my heart is broken.
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6 weeks [Feb. 18th, 2010|10:13 pm]
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]

I feel like I should post a quick update so I will remember what this time is like.

I am sooo tired. I get at least 8 1/2 hours of sleep a night and I take naps and still my energy is low. Like I'm stuck in first gear. I feel slightly nauseous at night but it's a different kind than I ever remember feeling. Like a cross between dizzy, faint and queasy. Mostly things that seem unappealing to me are vegetables and what seems very appealing are simple carb things like cheerios.

I went the gym yesterday and the day before but felt like my mind was moving my body instead of my body moving my body if that makes sense.

And now I am so sleepy I can write no more.
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"Earth is a peerless gleaming bride, dripping with diamonds, clad in trailing white" L.M. Montgomery [Feb. 7th, 2010|05:38 pm]
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]

So I am snuggled in my warm bed... at 4:35pm *shifty eyes*, whilst "smowmageddon" is being tidied up by shoveling neighbors and plow trucks. This is our third and by far biggest snow storm this winter and for some reason I have had absolutely no desire to go outside. Normally I like a good tromp though the snow and would see shoveling as highly productive exercise, but this week it just seems the opposite of all that is appealing.

My energy hasn't been very high this week and I've been taking a nap most days. I haven't slacked much on exercise but everything has been more of an effort. I've done about 6 1/2 hours of physical activity this week including dance, pilates, strength training, treadmill and biking.

I've been doing pretty well eating balanced meals although sometimes I think I've had a bit much even though it's been of healthy things :)

I made the Sesame Tofu from the recipe from zeroed_in (Thank you! :D) and it was really delicious (the sauce was amazing!) and has changed my opinion of tofu. It did take a long time to cook and by the time it was finally done I was ravenous but it was worth it!

I also made Quinoa Pancakes http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detail.asp?recipe=183893 including making my own quinoa flour and they were really good too! We had them drizzled with honey and fresh raspberries. For added protein (although quinoa does have quite a bit) I made a fruit smoothie of strawberries and bananas and added to it some non-fat plain greek yogurt and a little raw honey and I think it was one of the best smoothies I've ever had.

My goals before the day is done are to:

-Organize the pantry
-Wash and fold all the laundry
-Make a healthy dinner
-Dance for 30 minutes
-Take a bubble bath

I'm looking forward to having an organized pantry but dreading actually doing it. Not because I don't like to organize (because I do!) but because our pantry is smallish and the way it's situated you can't really see everything without moving other things around.

Some things that I do know that are in my pantry that will most likely need to come out (haha... maybe) are a box of funnel cake mix and a large bottle of vegetable oil for which I had devious plans ;) I'm trying to tell myself that I will most likely make a huge mess, burn myself, then proceed to clog my arteries and pack on pudge and be a greasy, powdery sugared repentant creature when I am done... BUT there is that magical fairy festival pied piper beckoning me on with glimmering candied apple dreams and carousel lights...

Focus focus focus. I want to have a strong healthy body with lean graceful dancer muscles. Right? Right. No funnel cake 0:)

I want to make some seafood gumbo with lots of okra or cream of crab soup this week. I'm looking for healthy recipes or at least recipes I can modify to make healthier. I wonder if there is a good place to buy seafood near my house? I'd like to eat more salmon (and I obviously need to get some lump crab meat although maybe canned will do?) but when I see the fish in the grocery store it looks sickly to me. I need to look into this.

Also on my shopping list are ingredients for a Raw Pad Thai dish http://rawfoodpunk.com/?p=18 that looks fascinating not to mention an interesting way to eat cabbage.
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Pilates: friend or foe? [Feb. 1st, 2010|10:38 pm]
[Current Mood |sleepysleepy]

Exercise today: 40 minutes of Body Combat, 60 minutes of torturous Pilates and 45 minutes on the treadmill.

I haven't taken a Pilates class in a long time and the woman who taught it tonight was intense. My body was buuurning. I had intended to lift some weights today but after all the push-ups and hardcore butt exercises from Combat plus the intensity of the Pilates, who wants weights??

I might try to keep up with Pilates at least once a week, but I prefer sweating and loud music over holding tight and still in a dim tranquil room that smells of feet. (okay it's not THAT bad but when you're concentrating on your breathing how can you help but notice?)

For dinner tonight I made Fennel Soup and it turned out really well! I've never cooked with fennel (or eaten it that I'm aware) but I've read that it's good for you and I liked the looks of it in the grocery store. It reminded me of Beatrix Potter. I loosely followed this recipe: http://www.tasteofhome.com/Recipes/White-Bean-Fennel-Soup, I used vegetable broth, kidney beans instead of white beans and fresh grape tomatoes instead of canned.

I also bought a Lavender plant today from Trader Joe's and it smells so beautiful :)

I want to go see a ballet! My mom and I usually see the Nutcracker every December but it didn't work out this past one and Sleeping Beauty is being performed at the Kennedy Center in DC next week! I'd like to look into that. Also there is a dance studio nearby that has drop-in Adult ballet classes on Saturday mornings that I'm thinking of checking out. I need to call and see how expensive it is.

Another update which I don't feel like even thinking about right now... is that the hugenormous tree in our back yard needs to be removed :( It's roots have broken into our sewer line and after over a year of problems with it, it has to go. So this very expensive process means our lovely little stone patio will be torn up, the stately tree will be destroyed, the pipe in part or in whole will have to be dug up and replaced, and the carpet in our basement will also have to be replaced. I feel tired just thinking of it... and also just tired for real.
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A lovely day for a long awaited pie [Jan. 30th, 2010|05:18 pm]
[Current Mood |thankfulthankful]

I love this day!

The snow is softly falling outside and making the world beautiful and I am sitting in my cozy dining room with all of my books and papers sprawled everywhere. PJs and a little space heater are keeping me toasty warm and a vanilla candle is making up for what the heater lacks in ambiance.

I just finished making the Lost Coconut Custard Pie from Veganomicon that I have been harping about and gleaning ingredients for all week and I can't wait til it's chilled! It's so satisfying to make things from scratch. I even made the crust including destroying the Matzo crackers into crumbs! The main ingredients that were harder to find were Agar(sea vegetable flakes), unsweetened coconut flakes and coconut extract. My local Giant doesn't carry those things anyway but the wonderful MOM's Organic Market does :D

I've eaten so many wonderful things today!

-"Power House Sandwich" (My take on Panera's breakfast sandwich) of egg white, organic ham, low-fat white cheddar and Irish butter on organic 3 seed bread
-Organic raspberries
-A dainty china tea cup of cinnamon herbal tea
-Half of a red grapefruit
-A small bowl of vanilla granola with raw walnuts and skim milk (walnuts are awesome in cereal!)
-Organic Arugula salad with red pepper, cherry tomatoes, creamy goat cheese, apple cider vinegar, olive oil and sea salt
-Homemade Fat-free Pumpkin Custard (amazing stuff and so easy to make!)
-A very tiny piece of Organic 74% dark chocolate with a small scoop of natural peanut butter

So what has been a sad loss of dining out has been an inspiration to cook even more and it also makes it much easier not to waste any food in the fridge.

I still plan to do something active today, probably a ballet dvd since I don't feel like walking about outside mussing up the snow or cleaning my car off etc.

This week I've been very diversified in exercise:

Monday- Swimming
Tuesday- Yoga, treadmill and free weights
Wednesday- Treadmill, bike, elliptical (boo), lower body, and Body Jam dance class
Thursday- Treadmill, upper body and Zumba dance class
Friday- Dancing to the radio and stretching
Saturday- TBD

Dan just saw my exercise clothes lying on the couch and commented: "there might be someone somewhere working out in the nude" ;)
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Long health rant [Jan. 29th, 2010|10:34 am]
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[Current Mood |artisticartistic]

I'm not even sure where to begin... I've been reading and re-reading and cross-referencing and researching so much this week to the conclusion that the way I look at food and what I eat and how and when I eat it has taken a shock to the chest!

I thought I was eating "healthy" because I was eating lots of whole natural foods and very little junk but now what I can clearly see is that I have not been eating a balanced diet! In my fancy for vegetarian dishes and disgust for tofu I have eliminated some necessary protein from several meals and usually felt I was eating healthier and more low fat having things like meatless spaghetti etc. I was ALSO under the impression from Jillian McKeith (You Are What You Eat) that for optimal digestion, protein shouldn't be eaten with carbs and fruit should always be eaten on it's own.

So while I'm an omnivore, I often skip meat and just figured that I certainly got enough protein from nuts, beans and dairy products (which may be true). For instance, Dan and I went out to Friday's a while back and I ordered a large meatless salad with strawberries and vinaigrette and a side of mashed potatoes and had water to drink and no dessert. So while I know mashed potatoes from a restaurant are not the best choice of food I figured I didn't do that badly. BUT from all that I've been reading, I basically just ate a huge carb meal balanced with no protein and therefore caused my glucose and insulin levels to spike communicating to my body to store fat and probably to be even hungrier within a short amount of time.

So balancing a meal now is about 15g of carbs to every 7g of protein with a limit of 30g(2 servings)of carbs per a 2hr period, although more protein (if needed to satisfy hunger) can be added an unlimited amount of vegetables. This even applies to snacks.

So this also means some of the "healthy" natural snack bars that I sometimes eat that have 46g of carbs and 6g of protein are WAY unbalanced. 46g of carbs is too much to have at one time and 6g of protein isn't enough to balance even a third of it! So no wonder they're never satisfying!

Surprisingly I've found this a really simple thing to do. I've basically been adding a little protein to everything I eat. Toast with an egg, grapefruit with a small handful of nuts, salad with chicken, cereal with milk, oatmeal with nuts, fruit with yogurt. I think a lot of people do this naturally but I really wasn't! Why have an egg when I'd rather have 2 slices of toast?

So I am changing my ways! Before, when I looked at food labels I would look at calories, fat and fiber, now I look at carbs and protein (although still mindful of fiber and good fats over bad fats) but I have not been eating less, maybe possibly even more and I feel more satisfied!

One negative point is that I've spent a ridiculous amount of money on food this week because I've been buying lots of different things like Whey Protein, beans, organic high protein soups, balanced snack bars, nuts and seeds and also strange things for some off the wall recipes (but that's another story).

So some other interesting things:

-The human body can create fat in 2hrs. (lovely efficiency)
-Plastic water bottles that bend/squish easily supposedly have been found to release toxins into the water. (sigh)
-High Quality apple cider vinegar if used correctly may lower glucose levels and encourage weight loss.
-1 to 2 ounces of 70% or above Dark Chocolate (can be eaten daily) can help regulate hormone levels and contain antioxidants that fight inflammation.
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Am I skinny yet? *looks at watch* [Jan. 25th, 2010|09:36 am]
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[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]

Weekly weigh in: 128lbs

*Sigh* that is going in the wrong direction.

I have eaten well this week, even better than the past few weeks. I've been eating low glycemic foods and lots of protein and not eating out and I've spent 7+ hours in the gym. My quads and obliques are rock hard but that is not the goal!

I kind of feel like going to the indoor pool today, maybe I'll see if my mom wants to go.

I found a recipe that looks really good for Chicken Shawarma: http://mideastfood.about.com/od/chicken/r/chickenshawarma.htm so that is currently marinating in my fridge and I made a huge batch of hummus and I'm planning to make some tabouleh as well. I really feel like making some dessert and I'm thinking about Lost Coconut Custard Pie or Almond-Quinoa Muffins from Veganomicon. They're both on the healthier side and I read in The Food Doctor that coconut helps regulate Thyroid function ;) However they are both dessert-ish and do I really want to put temptation in my kitchen wrought from my own hands?!
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Diet, Exercise and Inspiration! [Jan. 20th, 2010|05:06 pm]
[Current Mood |hungryhungry]

Diet (Christmas morning bagels with my little brother, I felt like Elf!)

Exercise (at the park with my brothers in November)

Inspiration (She's about my height)
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Sacks and sacks of fat! [Jan. 20th, 2010|04:01 pm]
[Current Mood |nerdynerdy]

I had a "1 Mix" antioxidant fiber drink this morning, only 115 calories for 11oz, 8g of fiber and 9g of protein and... it tasted like dish water -_o

I also got a book from the library: http://www.amazon.com/Hormone-Connection-Revolutionary-Discoveries-Hormones/dp/1579544010/ref=sr_1_5?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1264014533&sr=8-5 because I'm very interested in learning about hormones/metabolism etc. In one particular chapter it was referring to fat cells as "laundry sacks" and how they expand and collapse. The more insulin present in the body, the more fat gets shoved in the sacks and the more glucagon present the emptier the sacks will be. Foods with low glycemic values keep insulin levels down and fat sacks closed for business.

I'm surprised at some of the foods that are considered moderately to highly glycemic:

Rice cakes
Brown Rice Pasta
Rice Krispies
Shredded Wheat
Puffed Wheat

I eat a decent amount of cereal and LARA Bars (which basically use dates for their sweetness). I wonder if they're highly glycemic??

Fruits vary but it seems meat, dairy, vegetables, whole grains and *ahem* chocolate have low glycemic values ;)

My goal for the rest of the week is not to eat out... this makes me really sad since the weather is supposed to be disgusting and cold and it would be wonderful to go sit by the fireplace in La Madeleine sipping hot coffee and... *sigh* I will think of that no more!

OK...folding laundry, making chicken gyros from dinner (well sorta, minus the pita) and then off to dance class at the gym!
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Hya! [Jan. 19th, 2010|09:44 am]
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[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

I forgot to post my weekly weigh in yesterday but I don't really need to because I weigh exactly the same! Down to the ounce O_O 127.4. Maybe my scale is broken? Maybe I am broken? ;)

I beat up an invisible person yesterday for about an hour (aka Body Combat Class) where I also fought the urge to pull my underwear out of my butt (aka a wedgie). Round house kicks really make them ride up!

I also cleaned out our refrigerator til it sparkled to the conclusion that there was no food! Dan said it was amazing how it could be so full of nothing. It should be easier to see what there is now (even if nothing) and not waste so much.
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